things i often say and what they mean...
there are no cats in america: 1. homesickness, often a juxtaposition of a specific hatred in utah against the way it is better in florida. 2. depression, sadness for the way things are, longing to find that grass that is greener. 3. happy anticipation
for example, if you are coughing and can't breathe, and thinking that the air is hideous and dry and full of pollution, and that you can take lovely deep breaths in florida... well, instead of explaining all that, you might just gesture angrily and huff that there are no cats in america.
or, if you get in an argument and then retreat into yourself, you might notice you are humming that line of song quietly as you stare at nothing.
or, if you are about to go do something fun, or going home for a visit, you might find yourself dancing around, gleefully yelling that there are no cats in america.
i am the dischord in the thrum/i am the thrum in the discord: 1. i feel disconnected, 2. i feel connected when i shouldn't
sometimes i think this when i don't know why i'm angry or upset, or my own actions are confusing me. sometimes i feel arrogant and condescending and mean it like i am too alien for the other person to grasp or they are too small.
a thrum is a droning, monotonous hum. to you, THE Thrum is the sum of all thrum. of life, the universe and everything. the noise and the pulse of it all.
you mean discord as the usual definition, but you also like the idea of a dischord. you think the misspelling puts a discord inside the word as well as emphasizing the definition of a dissonant sound. and it makes you think of string theory, and a musical chord being played wrong.
when you feel like you are a wrong note in the universe, you are a dischord in the thrum.
when you feel either happy, numb, or calm amidst it all, OR if you feel comfort from your rage, OR if violence makes you feel calm, that is all- i am the thrum in the discord.
those 2 took longer to write than i thought... more some other day...
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